A bit of a babble

I have been thinking a lot lately about Life, the universe and everything (or more precisesly where my life is going) and letting go of a few childhood plans and dreams- something that should have been done a long time ago. I have been trying to think in terms of What I SHOULD be doing and planning- not what I WANT to do and perhaps if these things should be the same.

For an extremely long time I have had one goal in mind- to get married and have a family- probably a BIG family. As I am coming up to my 26th birthday, I have been seriously considering and seriously praying about the next 1/4 century of my life.

I dont have any decisions made (I know- typical Mel- indecisive) and I dont know particularly what I should be praying about but I am praying that I will be willing to 'listen' and obey God and trust in His plans as at the moment I dont think I am focussing on His glory but on my own selfish desires. I love my job and I want to use it as a way of ministering to other people- something I do not do at the moment- I know that whatever I do I need to be much more diligent and committed- and I need to put some effort into learning to speak to people clearly (those of you who know me know that often words fail me and I mumble and stumble) so there is a long way to go and I am still no clearer about where I am headed- I would like to go and teach overseas (maybe South America) but I think that first I need to learn to minister to people in my home country and area- something that terrifies me!!!

I can only keep praying andtrusting- 2 things that I m not particularly great at and know that whatever I do, it WILL be done for the glory of God because that is the way that God is and the purpose for which we exist