Augh!

Wow, have you ever had those times when things are going fantastic and smooth and you lul yourself into a false sense of security then when you least expect it and want it, things suddenly blow up and you didnt even see it coming? I seem to be having one of those weeks or actually fortnights. Things at work are a bit crazy other stuff is going haywire and to top it off I have this stupid cold- grrr. Anyway, thats my whinge for the day- yeah yeah- poor Melly and all that nonsense. The reason for writing this is not to have people feel sorry for me it is to write about how I seem to function- when things are going really well I am always thanking God and praising Him then when things go bad I automaticaaly go into 'self' mode and try to sort everything out on my own. When it gets to boiling point (which it rarely does) and I sit there for hours trying to figure out what to do- only then that I stop and think- "Right- you actually CANT do this on your own- you have to rely on God" and then I pray about it and it seems to reduce- I mean the problems are still there but it is like I am able to see through the fog and think it out- it took me a long time to realise this and you would think that I would do this before it gets to this point but with tedeous regularity I try to rely on myself- Not too bright huh!!!

Anyway I am looking forward to the Church Conference coming up this weekend- last year was fantastic and I am sure this year will be just as good- I love spending time with other people from church- particularly those who I dont see very often from other services and just being away from the rest of the world for 2 days- studying God's word and just hanging out- YAY!

Sorry it has been so long since I last wrote- up until recently my life has been completely boring and stress free and have not had anything to write about.